September 5, 2014~~I missed my blogging anniversary this week. I can’t believe I’ve been writing for six years as of August 31. This blogging anniversary is always a time when I re-focus.
For those of you who follow me on a regular basis, my summer writing has been sparse. I continue to remind myself why I write. I like to tell myself It is not for comments or the amount of readers who come and go or stay and become regular readers, but some days I can’t help but check the stats and comments. But reality hits and I read my first blog post and remember, yes, I do write for an audience of ONE, always attempting to focus on what would honor the Lord. Most days and even moments I have to re-focus.
There have been several decisive moments in my life bringing me to a place of re-focusing my life and priorities.
But the turning point in my walk of faith was almost 7 years when my dad passed away suddenly and unexpectedly. Life as I knew it with family activities, teaching women’s Bible studies, working in a bakery came to a crashing halt. I was so busy doing I had lost my focus, I had lost my passion for Jesus Christ. He was no longer the main thing, my activities which were mainly christian in nature were the focus. I was doing and not being still and knowing God.
The very next day after my dad went to be with Jesus all these “good” things fell by the wayside. I turned to Jesus who alone could comfort and love me. As I descended into a valley of profound grief and questions regarding how my dad died, I turned to the Word of God daily, many times throughout the day. My focus was now front and center on Jesus.
Questions I had were answered in God’s Word. How did I get to the point I was so busy and not focusing on the most important relationship with Jesus? As I read Matthew 5:1-11 Jesus explains here what a true disciple is and questions we can ask ourselves.
- Do I recognize how desperately I need God and His help? Matthew 5:3
- Is there a sin/sins in my life I need to mourn over, seeking forgiveness from God? Matthew 5:4
- Am I meek, trusting the in sovereignty of God in my life? Matthew 5:5
- Am I merciful, showing kindness and forgiveness to others as Christ has forgiven me? Matthew 5:7
- Does purity affect every area of my life? Heart, mind and soul? Matthew 5:8
- Do I show the world I value Jesus above everything else, even when persecuted? Matthew 5:10
Is Jesus all I want, more than all in Thee I find?(Charles Wesley hymn)
God’s Word is always the best way to get your eyes back on Jesus.