So, Mom are you ready to turn 50?
A daughter, who I will not name, called last night and in the course of the conversation asked this question.
Uuuuuummmmm was about all I could muster as I stammered that I really don't have a choice do I? Yes, this year I will turn 50 and recently said to my husband who will do the same this year, it really doesn't bother me to be 50 years old. In light of yesterday's post
I am looking forward to the coming years when I will have more time to serve others outside my family.
My struggle in this season of life seems to be I am out of a job, well almost. Mothering will continue for my older 3 taking a turn towards friendship as they call to chat about their jobs, interests and drama at the workplace. Young adult friends who will still need direction and encouragement as they find their way in the world, but my day in day out job is done. Giving them space to make new friends, have adventures without mom taxiing them, and yes, failures without mom and dad to pick up the pieces. That is where their dependence on God will be strengthened...
Except for child #4 that is,who is still in the nest but testing her wings. Being a social butterfly like her sisters, she isn't around much. Which is ok too. I knew this day would come and there were A LOT of days I would have paid money for Calgon to take me away.
There is more time to write, walk many miles for exercise, drink more cups of coffee with friends and bake/cook new and interesting recipes. And spending a lot of time asking God what's next? now what? show me your will...trying to take one moment at a time, honoring God in that moment as my identity in Christ will never end even though my job description might.
And I've heard 50 is the new 30!!