Much like life, we don't know what a day will bring, sometimes I'm not sure of my next seconds. I was reminded again this weekend of the brevity of life when two employees of a favorite restaurant were gunned down and killed. Senseless and tragic. It is another example of not knowing what the future holds and the fog that can descend and not lift when life takes turns we didn't see coming.
Mother's Day of this year found my husband and I trying to make our way to Maryland after church. Since he had already put in an early morning with doing what he does best, I was in the driver's seat so he could nap. It was a sunny, beautiful day with no clue what lay ahead.
And in an instant the sun disappeared and fog took it's place,so thick I couldn't see my hand in front of my face. For what seemed like hours I drove at a turtle's pace hoping there would be light soon. Even months later I remember the discomfort and tension I felt trying to rush my way out of what seemed endless darkness.
I'm writing months later, so I lived to tell the story, but am continually reminded of discomfort, tension and not knowing what a day may bring, not necessarily in my own life today, but in many of those I love and attempt to have answers for the question of 'will this ever end?' When will the fog lift? When will walking in the dark become light? And since I am not God, my attempts at answering fall short.
What I can say is I know the God who is with us in the fog, in the darkness, when we're not sure the sun will ever shine again, Jesus walks with us, in fact he knows exactly how we feel when we don't think we can take one more step in some of our very desperate circumstances. I know I am comforted by the fact that my circumstances may change in the coming seconds, but my Father in heaven, is the same yesterday, today and forever and he is Good.
My favorite pastor has been preaching from the book of Habakkuk in a series titled Faith During Tough Times. Yesterday he ended his message quoting Andrew Murray, which I will leave you with.
In times of trouble say:
First, He brought me here; it is by His will I am in this strait place; in that fact I will rest.
Next, He will keep me here in His love, and give me grace to behave as His child.
Then, He will make the trial a blessing, teaching me the lessons He intends me to learn, and working in me the grace He means to bestow.
Last, In His good time He can bring me out again--how and when he knows.
Let me say here,(Pastor Rob)
By God's appointment.
In His keeping.
Under His training.
For His time.
In our changing circumstances and daily living may we trust the One who not only walks with us, but goes before us.