I wish I could say I have my act together, my life organized and heading in one direction. Fact is, I can't lie. If you see me on the street, well..walking, not actually on the street, you will see a pretty much put together person. But this picture sums up the past several weeks and the days to come. It is easy to feel like your head is spinning most of the time. With too much coming and going we sometimes forget to enjoy the go, go, going.
Why am I trudging through a bad marriage(not me), why can't I get my finances in order(not me) and why did one of my dearest friends have to die(gain, not me) are just a few questions I've heard this week, causing us to lose focus and our purpose for the day. What is the hub of our heart on a daily basis? Focusing on the problem and not on the Great Problem Solver shows us where our hearts lie. Can I cry out to God in the middle of neediness and affliction? Do I believe He is my only Help and Deliverer? (Psalm 70:5)
As Justin left a week ago for a new adventure in Wyoming Hannah arrived back in Lafayette from her overseas travel. Add to the mix a busy teenager and life in the parsonage, this girl in the green shirt has been me. Arriving this week for a visit is my Mom from Iowa along with Lori a life long friend. Kelsey will make her way home this weekend filled with apple picking, birthday celebrations, coffee sipping, including Kopi Luwak, on the deck and a couple of days of memory making before everyone heads back home early next week. A week from Wednesday, October 1, Hannah and I will pile into her Honda Civic with all her earthly belongings(this isn't her car, but you get the idea of what we will be piling into)
heading west across country, landing in Phoenix, AZ where she will live with family until she gets a job and apartment. Yes, two children will be thousands of miles away. And yes, I will cry as I head back east on an airplane to my beloved family in New York, church family included. But, I will also be happy for the four children God gave me who are pursuing their dreams, who are living life to the fullest and will continue to cause their momma's (their word for me) to spin.