It was a dark and stormy night...
whoops wrong story...
It was August 1980 and my mom and dad had just dropped me off at Bible college, their first child out of the nest. Only recently, some 30+ years later did she tell me she cried all the way home. I had no idea what story God was weaving, wondering why He had nudged my heart to follow Him to study His Word everyday.
Then during Freshman orientation a very tall, skinny boy with the biggest afro on a guy I've ever seen walked down the spiral staircase of the library. I wish I could remember why I was drawn to him that moment but I can't. I can say God was working in both of our lives that first day of orientation.
I wish I could remember our first conversation or the first time our paths crossed, but this 50 yro brain cannot.
I do remember reading Matthew 10:37-39 shortly after that freshmen orientation,
The person who loves father or mother more than Me is not worthy of Me; the person who loves son or daughter more than Me is not worthy of Me. And whoever does not take up his cross and follow Me is not worthy of Me. Anyone finding his life will lose it, and anyone losing his life because of Me will find it.
It would be several years before I understood unqualified allegiance to God and Him being my first love. I remember my pursuit of God took a back seat to my pursuit of getting my MRS. degree, which I didn't get. Mr. Gates had more important things to do like study, study and follow God with all his heart, mind and soul. More on that in the days to come.
Marriage is a model of Christ and his church, which I knew and know...but I was looking for someone else to fill the hole in my heart that only Jesus Christ can fill. I had been a Christian for five years, but wanted to have a boyfriend rather than focus on taking up my cross and losing my life. That didn't sound like much fun.
For my single friends reading this post...don't waste your life wishing you were married or pursuing marriage or pursuing dating or chasing boys. Easy for me to say, right? I've been married many years. But in hindsight I can say it is so much better to pursue and love God with all your heart, mind and soul and he will give you the desires of your heart. Let Jesus be the lover of your soul, make Jesus your treasure...put Christ on display wherever you find yourself today...
that's good advice for me too.